16 November 2008

Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness






The common question when seeing people that I haven't seen in a bit is a mixture of questions of the past and the future-- how was the wedding and how is it without your wife not being in the country?
At this point in my life, I feel like I am in limbo, no direction, no way home, just waiting, lurking in the shadows, waiting for the moment when my wife is allowed to enter the country so that we can then begin our lives together.
This time has not been easy, so difficult that at times you try not to think of it, whatever you have to do to get away from it, to get away from the reality of your life being on hold because of the government.
During this time, I have had the opportunity to work on myself the way that I have wanted to since coming back from China-- losing the weight that I quickly put on from spending a year in China. I lost 50 pounds in China and gained 100 coming back. I made a promise to myself when I got married and could barely fit into a suit that enough was enough-- I was going to take my life back and begin to make decisions that need to be made because I want to have a life and I want to be a role model for my children-- someone that they can look up to in any case.
So I have spent the last three months going to the gym and trying to take care of myself, trying to develop myself into a routine, getting things straight, mentally and physically so that I could begin this new life with my wife, fresh and anew.
Today was a celebratory breaking point-- I reached the first of my goals since undertaking this challenge and it was done with the help of the Smashing Pumpkins Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness, a complex double album of songs that supposedly chronicle the different stages of life, from sadness to joy to anger to enlightenment...
I have listened to this album hundreds of times, seen the band perform it live in their pajamas and it is one of the en grained soundtracks of my life. It is one of the strongest albums ever recorded and each time I listen to it, I think about all the times around it in life.
In some ways it seems like the perfect thing to listen to while hitting the elliptical machine for 60 minutes-- and the first part of Mellon Collie lasts 56 minutes-- so I am looking forward to hitting the next part of the album on the next goal-- or maybe on the plane as I am going to see my wife for the first time in months...
But I am keeping my head up, looking forward to the future, one moment at a time...

Hope youre all well.

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06 November 2008

On Obama...

After years of campaigning relentlessly for the candidates and their armies of people, the war was won handily by the democrats. I, like most of the people, am glad its over.
I am also happy that it wasn't close, that we didn't have to wait all night to realize who the next leader would be-- the message was clearer than it ever has been in my entire life-- the words of the American spoken as close to unison as we have seen in quite some time-- and that message was clear- Obama.
The biggest thing that we can hope for in the this country is that we begin to once again begin the process of functioning like the America that I remember-- a land with prosperity, a place where people wanted to come to attempt the American dream-- a place of freedom. The last eight years have really turned people against each other because most people were seemingly unhappy about something-- and it seemed like Tuesday night we gained our souls back again, the balance of power from eight years of misrepresented government washed away in the hopes of our new leader.
Barrack Obama is legit-- that is the best way to describe it-- he is the perfect leader of our country and will open up so many options for all of us because he will not need to be guided through the rough world of politics-- his biggest financial backer are the American people, people like you and I, people who donated our actual income to this man because the basic things that he thinks and says are exactly what we are saying and thinking.
It just feels good to be an American again. Read more!

14 October 2008

from the shoreline basement.

As I am now back to work, I finally have the time to lie on my couch and enjoy some reading. This reading is an evil thing, mind you. Its not like television where you have things constantly dancing in front of you for how ever long its on-- no, this reading thing actually gets you thinking about things!
Not only are you thinking about the reading you are doing, but your mind is also attempting to put these things into a video like sequence inside of you head to make the words seem more appealing!
I know, I can hardly contain myself!
Last night I went and saw Sarah Vowell speaking at Town Hall. It was just what I needed to pull myself out of the rut I have been in lately--thus rut which is mostly brought on by the upcoming election and how most conversations either involve that--or television.
Vowell has a new book out, The Wordy Shipmates, which I have instantly (and not intentionally), put in front of the other masses of literary schwag I have purchased since getting that first back at work paycheck just a few short weeks ago...
...and I am glad that I did just that.
Her talk last night was specifically arranged to showcase the book, but she didnt read for long and when she was done, a question and answer period followed. She was kind and it was not as tiresome as it normally is--there were actually moments where I was quite interested in the book and so purchased it and got it and a couple of McSweeney's along, which she remarked that she hadn't actually seen them in awhile.
So, it has inspired me once again to begin reading and writing again.
But now I must go and zone out at the gym.
Hope you're well.
Heading to Pullman this weekend, the first time since graduation. Read more!

07 October 2008

...moments before another debate

This one is supposed to be different than the other ones.
This one is done in a town hall style, with people asking questions that will no doubt be read from a card, real people asking rehearsed questions.
What do I expect in the next hour and half?
Lots of nothing-- a serious lack of McCain answering questions about the economy, Obama not calling him on it, vice versa.
The American public will once again come away from this wondering how the hell we got to where we are, afraid to discuss the issues that are directly impacting us and the way that we live. All of this goes without us really being present in the process.

Heres a question:
1. What do you think of the arrests of journalists and protesters from the GOP convention? Read more!

05 October 2008

...from Redmond.

I have decided to start using the title of each posting as where I am posting it from... So today, its ...from Redmond as I am sitting in my office in building 28 of the Micrsoft campus working on a release of something new for MS (but thats all I will say on the internets about it).

I have been spending much of my days frustrated and unable to write about whats happening politically in our country because I think we are all suffering greatly from the sensory overload that the upcoming election is having upon us.

It feels good to just pull away from all of the pure bullshit and not think about it--because for most of us, its just depressing that these are the best that America offers up to the highest position in the land.

Don't get me wrong. This is the first time in my entire life that I have felt connected to a candidate and that I mostly agree with-- I really do think that Obama as president will do one major thing for the rest of this country above all others--and that is bring hope and trust back into politics. The two foundations of our entire way of life is based on two basic principals: Hope and Trust. Both of these things have been erased by the previous administration and we need to get it back to an even playfield.

Hope and faith are what are going to restore the economy and nothing else.

--back to work... Read more!

14 September 2008

Thoughts...

Hello again my friends, Hello.
I have not been especially busy with anything worth mentioning lately, except finalizing job prospects and watching way too much television.
I have a new job, with Microsoft, on a contract, which starts on Wednesday.
The big thing that has been consuming my thoughts lately has been this terrible courting by the media to talk non-stop about the political process that we are currently entrenched in.
Three years in the making, this political season must go down as the worst one in history, mostly because we have had to endure these people for the last several years and although the faces have changed, the agenda hasn't altered hardly at all.
The way that the news networks are going about this, it will be difficult to imagine how anyone will be able to vote with their heart.
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02 September 2008

Ooooh the Politics of it all...

So here we are in the middle of the political season and this will be remembered as one of the most disjointed runs for the presidency since... well, I would think if it had to be compared to another time, then since the civil war.
The republican party is in the midst of one of the hardest attempts to retain its control on the oval office and carry out a failed agenda that has been going on since the Reagan years, if not sooner. However, they know that this agenda is not going to work and now they are trying to distance themselves as far away from themselves as they can and still call themselves the GOP.
Why?
I don't know, to be terribly honest.
The biggest thing I can see is that the power of the GOP sees that the only way to compete in this election is to launch a marketing campaign that shows that this is the new Republican Party!
...and what a new party it is. They end up with McCain, who is now being heralded as a "maverick" by the very institution that he belongs to-- it seems like such a weird and twisted concept and one that I cannot seem to understand how people are going to fall for this.
..and this was before Sarah Palin entered the picture. This is like the greatest gift to the Dem's that anyone could ask for-- and such a pitiful move on the part of the McCain camp who barely investigated this woman before rolling her out to the American public. Everyday since the announcement there have been new and exciting revelations about the Annie Oakley of American politics-- the moose shooting hockey mom that went against the corrupt and bribe ridden establishment of Alaska in just two short years!
This is a clear smoke signal to distract the American people from the issues--instead we focus more on the hockey mom and her non-birth control family that is growing by the day (oh wait, were supposed to leave her family affairs out of this), her record of two years as Governor and previous years as a mayor of a town smaller than my graduating class at University, and the years before where she actually supported Alaska attempting to resign from the 50 states, among many other little quips-- this woman even makes my liberal leaning brain turn a bit conservative.
Not too mention her belief in drilling in Alaska--NPR did a great job of researching the fact that Palin went against Bush in his attempts to put the Polar bear on the endangered species list, because it would interfere with Oil exploration.
The last eight years I keep wondering to myself how the hell this could have happened, but now I realize its because people are so aloof when it comes to these issues and the politicians work hard to market their candidate in just the right way so that it confuses that middle ground where we all should be.
These two yahoos just make my pick from six months ago, Mr. Joe Biden, look like the patron saint to the people.. Think what you want about Obama, but he clearly has the backing of the Kennedy powerhouse in this campaign--and that family is one that all of us at one point in our lives have thought somewhat highly about. This question about the ability to lead the country is just such a crock to me-- is W. really fit to lead as commander in chief?
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
Yet, we elected (sort of) to two terms of service.
Is experience really that relevant?
No.
Its all about leadership I think-- someone that is going to respected in the INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY and can also reach out to Americans--and this person is Obama. Having just been married in Germany, I can tell you that people across the globe are really inspired and hopeful and excited about Obama--and that is more important than moose huntin'! Read more!

22 August 2008

Radiohead - Climbing Up The Walls (Live) Auburn WA

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Radiohead - Idioteque (Live) White River Amphitheater

More from radiohead live at White River--

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Radiohead - 15 step (Live) White River Amphitheater, Auburn WA

The opening set to the best current live band touring today, Radiohead. Taken live from the White River show in Auburn, Washington...

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Radiohead - All I Need (Live) White River Amphitheater

What an amazing set from the current gods of rock n roll.

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21 August 2008

LeRoi

...listening to Bartender the night that LeRoi died..
You can really hear the distraction in Dave's voice, Carter playing the drums harder than I have ever heard him play... So much energy in this performance...
The song seems to be available via weeklydavespeak.com
I was out at the gym tonight listening to Dreaming Tree and thinking about just how sad and tragic it is that he is gone-- and my roomate brought to light an interesting point--
with all the money that LeRoi must have, how did modern science fail him? I am curious how such a blatant oversight could have possible have occurred-- how we have the greatest health care system for the privledged and yet something like this happens?
Sadness still lingers inside for someone whose music I have enjoyed so much. Read more!

20 August 2008

LeRoi Moore is no longer on the sax-a-phone....

Listening to Loving Wings and thinking about what a huge talent LeRoi was and will remain so because of all the tapes and digital recordings that we have of him in that space that he used so well to help define what the Dave Matthews Band really is.
To lose such a wonderful talent to such a crazy thing like 4 wheeling on your own property makes you really think just how totally precious life really is.
LeRoi was a member of the band that I have the highest amount of respect for-- the one band that I have seen almost 50 times, had the pleasure of working with many years ago and one which is so inspirational to so many artists.
LeRoi is the one guy that just does his thing and does it so well--and now not seeing him up there, well, its got to be like Zeppelin playing without Bonzo--but the band seems to want to finish this tour and then see where things lie.
My thoughts and prayers are with the band and Moore's family. What a tragic loss for the world... Read more!

19 August 2008

Would-Be Protesters Detained in China

By ANDREW JACOBS
Published: August 18, 2008
BEIJING — When Gao Chuancai slipped into the capital last week hoping to stage a one-man rally against corruption in his village in northeast China, he knew his chances of success were slim.

During his decade-long crusade, Mr. Gao, a 45-year-old farmer from Heilongjiang Province, had been jailed a dozen times. Two beatings by the police left him with broken bones and shattered his teeth, he said, but did little to temper his drive.

The government’s recent announcement that preapproved protests would be allowed at three sites during the Olympic Games gave him a wisp of hope. Two weeks ago he mailed in his application, and last week he came to Beijing to follow up. During a visit to the Public Security Bureau on Wednesday, the police interviewed him for an hour and then told him to return in five days for his answer. “They’ll probably arrest me when I go back,” he said afterward.

Mr. Gao did not have to wait very long. A few hours later, he was picked up by the authorities and escorted back to Heilongjiang. On Monday, his son, Gao Jiaqing, in the family’s village, Xingyi, said he had not heard from him.

A man who picked up the phone at the Wanggang police station, near Xingyi, acknowledged that Mr. Gao was being detained at a local hotel. “He’s under our control now,” said the officer, Wang Zhuang.

Mr. Gao’s ill-fated odyssey is not unlike the journeys of other would-be demonstrators who responded to the government’s notice that protest zones would be set up during the Games. At least three other applicants are in custody. Two, Ji Sizun and Tang Xuecheng, were seized during the interview process at the Public Security Bureau, according to human rights activists.

On Monday, 10 days into the Games, the government had yet to permit a single demonstration in any of the official protest zones. According to a report on Monday by Xinhua, the official news agency, 77 applications have been received since Aug. 1, from 149 people.

All but three applications, however, were withdrawn after the authorities satisfactorily addressed the petitioners’ concerns, Xinhua said. Two of the remaining requests were rejected because the applicants failed to provide adequate information, and the last was rejected after the authorities determined it violated laws on demonstrations.

Protests are not illegal in China, but they require government approval, a prospect that often dissuades citizens, daunted by excessive bureaucracy or potential retaliation. Posters and slogans must be submitted to the police, and each participant must apply in person. Any rally deemed a threat to “social stability and public order” can be denied permission, and most are.

Nicholas Bequelin, a researcher at Human Rights Watch, a private group based in New York, said he and other rights advocates had been skeptical that China would fulfill its pledge to allow greater free speech during the Olympic Games. Still, he said, the International Olympic Committee should be held accountable for not pressing China on the issue. “The I.O.C. seems oblivious to the fact that they’re holding the Games in a repressive environment,” he said.

Giselle Davies, spokeswoman for the I.O.C., said that she hoped Beijing would follow the path of other host cities and allow demonstrations in designated areas but that the issue was one for local officials to decide.

The days Mr. Gao spent in Beijing were both nerve-racking and exhilarating for him. He said he knew that the police from Heilongjiang were on his trail, but he was buoyed by the possibility that a foreign reporter might tell his story. “With the Olympics here, now is the best time to remind the world that China still has problems that need to be solved,” he said.

His handwritten poster listed a series of grievances against Xingyi and Wanggang officials. He accused them of stealing money meant to compensate farmers after their land was confiscated and described how he was jailed and beaten for publicizing his allegations. Last year, he wrote, his wife swallowed a fatal dose of pesticides at the Wanggang government building in the futile hope that she might shame officials into releasing the money owed to Mr. Gao and his neighbors. Mr. Gao said that his wife had been suffering from breast cancer and that the couple could no longer afford treatment.

The police arrested Mr. Gao, saying he had given her the poison. A court released him, but the police warned him against continuing his campaign. Mr. Gao said the police told him that if he caused trouble again, he could be killed.

He was not deterred. When he arrived in Beijing, he slept in a different hotel or bathhouse each night. By checking in around midnight and leaving at dawn, he said he hoped to evade security officials who often trace people through their registration information. He made sure to leave his cellphone at home and called his son only from public phones.

In a telephone interview, Mr. Gao’s son said he was worried about his father, but he also expressed resignation.

“I used to try to stop him but now I don’t bother,” said the son. “He has been through so much but he keeps on chasing his dream of justice.” He sighed, then added, “I fully support him.” Read more!

18 August 2008

Road Trip Jacobe Style...

As the plane touched the ground in Fort Myers, Florida, I knew I was in for a long run on the road. I had no idea what sort of condition my place was going to be in Mobile, Alabama. I hadn't been there in over two months and it was the dead of summer on the Gulf Coast so at the very least I was expecting a few cockroaches.

The drive to Mobile was much longer than google maps or myself had anticipated--I was thinking 10 hours of mediocre driving would get me there, so I pushed the speed a little more than usual, but at 3 in the morning, some eight hours into a twelve hour jaunt through Florida, I find myself on the side of the road, thanks to the Florida State Patrol. By the time I make it to Mobile, the sun has risen in the skyline and I have been up for more than 24 hours since leaving my new wife in Germany, thanks to the department of Homeland Security.

As I pull into the parking spot, I see that the townhouse is still there, but there is a slip of paper on the door, which is never a good sign.
The sign notes that the water in the apartment has been shut off for non-payment earlier this afternoon. I sigh. This is just my type of luck--just a few hours short of getting a water bill. If this is all that goes wrong, things can't be all that bad. I am such a daze anyway it doesn't really matter, all I want is a bed and a shower-- but just the bed will do.

I have been thinking of my bed for several hours now and the sight of it almost brings tears to my eyes--there is something about this bed that really rings comfort to me. I lay on top of the bed, allowing my thoughts to mill over the last month of my life, a wedding in Germany, an impromptu Turkish honeymoon and now the tying of loose ends in Alabama, a long journey back to Seattle--my thoughts reel me into a slumber that should last for days.

It doesn't. I know that there is so much to be done and this weighs on my mind heavily. I have about two days until my good friend Jacobe flies down from San Francisco to help me finalize things for the movers and drive with me back to his San Francisco and then I will go to Seattle.
The time of course slips by as it always does and I find myself driving to pick him up at the Louis Armstrong International Airport in New Orleans, my favorite American city. I have not been so delighted to see someone is quite some time. We head into the French Quarter at 1am, just to see what could possibly be going on for a Sunday night. Of course since it is the French Quarter in the wee hours of the night, there is always something going on--the streets smell just like they always do, like piss, booze and vomit--oh how I miss that smell from time to time. It is the smell of pure sin.

We decide that we aren't quite in the New Orleans state of mind and instead head to Mobile...

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17 August 2008

Olympics...

I have been keeping quiet about the Olympics on the blog for a reason. I really didn't want to make any judgements or comments about the games or the Chinese until I had enough time to really think about it.
Firstly, I think that the Chinese have really managed to pull off quite the show, if you watch the games from a strictly NBC perspective. There have been a lot of different things happening with the Olympics that beg investigation, yet NBC is probably not going to lead these discussions because they have so much at stake with the coverage.

Here is a short list of issues:


1. The opening ceremonies were doctored slightly to give a more impressive feeling overall. I find this to be interesting as the computer imaging didn't really need to happen, but the Chinese were sure to go as over the top as possible.


2. The gymnastics controversy--the Chinese gymnasts are suppose to be 16 in order to compete in the events, but there are a lot of questions as to the passports that they provided to prove their age. I can tell you from experience--the Chinese passport is not exactly one of the more legitmate documents out there. I do not understand why there is not further investigation into this.


3. The ugly duckling scenerio: Not allowing the girl with most beautiful voice in the world to sing her own piece of work is just embarrassing, but so Chinese--why? This is all about image--the Chinese are hell bent on making sure that the west doesn't see behind the red curtain and the easiest way to do that is to make everything as beautiful as possible.


4. China has 1% of its annual GPD on the games--thats 40-60 billion dollars on these games! It is also important to note that the Government does not spend nearly that much on education or health care for the 1.3 billion people it has in it country.


5. Attendance of the games: Are you like me and wondering exactly why the stands at most sporting events are so ill attended? Check out this link:


http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/asia/china/article4547323.ece


6. World shattering records: Ok, give it up for Phelps, who shattered the previous records of Spitz, but I keep wondering, how can this Olympics be the one that smashes so many records in so many different sports? By the time that this thing is over this will be the most record breaking Olympics in our time--and I just have a strange feeling that perhaps some of the construction is just a tad off in design--there has already been a lot of talk about the incredibly "fast pool" which Phelps has brought home his 8 solid golds. We will more than likely never know the truth about that one, but it is something to think about.


There are more issues, but these are the main things I have been thinking about. I do think that the Olympics is a great thing for China and I do hope that it does continue to open huge doors for the people of China, but there has been very disturbing news that the country will enter a huge recession once the games are over-and that might just be enough to send the country back undercover again while it licks its wounds from the Olympics. Read more!

03 August 2008

Back in Seattle...

Wow, is about all I can say.
It's really been quite the month since the wedding!
Lili and I went to Turkey for our impromptu honeymoon, which was a good time. I left a few days after we got back and flew into Fort Myers, Florida, where I rented a car and was pulled over by the police at 3 in the morning on my way to Mobile, to pick up my stuff and continue onwards to the other side of the country.
When I arrived in mobile in the morning, I was quite disturb to discover that the day before they decided to cut off my water due to an outstanding bill of $11.64!!! If I wanted to have my water turned back on at the apartment, it would have required paying the balance of $11.64 and a deposit of $100.00, and a $60.00 reconnection fee! So, I opted out of that deal. I went on Sunday night and picked up Jacobe from New Orleans, my travelling companion for the next several days, from Mobile to San Francisco--which I will be blogging and sharing pictures about in the coming days.
We had a really wonderful time once we packed up everything from Mobile for the movers and headed out on Wednesday morning-- the trip went nearly perfect except for camping in moonsoon conditions at the Grand Canyon and having my car prowled in San Francisco--more on that later.
Then, to put icing on the proverbial cake, I was in a car accident the day after my arrival in Seattle. A korean guy decided to cut across four lanes of traffic and make an illegal turn in rainy conditions and I slammed into him, quite hard. Damage to the Hyandai is going to be large, but we shall see.
This weekend marked the end of travel, making it up to Tiny's place in Easton, always a treat and watching Eric and Lindsay Groenhart get married at semiahmoo.. quite the wedding....
...more on all of this later. Read more!

15 July 2008

Back from turkey

It feels like I am on tour.
We arrived back from Turkey yesterday morning in what was the worst flight of my life-- a 4am flight from Turkey where the air conditioning was broken and I spent the time trying to sleep but just as I began to enter REM, something jarring would happen and I would wake up.
Turkey was an experience of its own merit--a sunny beach paradise which had amazing beaches but they were littered with some of the most peculiar people you could come across. The town is called Side, right on the seas of the med. It is an ancient city from the Roman times and there are ruins all around the city as a constant reminder.
I have always longed to visit Turkey, but this is not the turkey I had imagined and I look forward to now being so closely associated with Germany to be able to go there with relative ease.
More on Turkey later.
I will be entering the USA on friday, into Fort Myers, Florida. I will then be renting a car, driving to Mobile, moving out of my apartment in Mobile.
Jacobe will be flying in from San Francisco on Sunday and we will leave Mobile on Monday or Tuesday night, heading for San Fran via Austin and Arkansas and hopefully arriving on Friday or Saturday in the Seattle.

Its been a long tour, but so glad the end is near. We have the wedding pics from the photographer and they are fun and beautiful and there are many pics of my dad smiling!!!

More when I have time, I promise! Read more!

06 July 2008

Honeymoon in Turkey

Tomorrow we leave for our honeymoon in Turkey. Yes, Turkey. Those of you who have never left the states probably do not even know where Turkey is, but it has been on my radar since the days of WSU and Dr. Robert Staab. I am excited to finally fufill the dream of seeing the heart of the Ottoman Empire and sitting on a beach and relaxing.

We are going to the Turkish Rivera, on the Mediterrian Sea. The area has some of the best beaches in the world and Roman remains, pre-Ottoman kind of thing.


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I will post when I can take a moment out of the sunny beaches and beautiful history that awaits us. We will back in Germany a week from Monday, then I fly to the states on Thursday, landing in Miami, then to Mobile on Friday, then more than likely renting a truck in Mobile and driving to Seattle by the end of the month...


What a crazy couple of months its been, but I wouldn't trade it.... Read more!

04 July 2008

Links to Wedding Pics

Well, its been a week since our wonderful wedding journey began in Bremerhaven, so what a better way than to upload some pics for your enjoyment. We had such a great time and these pictures show it. The reception went from 7pm until 63oam the next morning, which is craziness I don't expect to ever repeat again!
Hope you all enjoy the pics!
Regards!


(CLICK ON THE PIC TO VIEW THAT SERIES OF PHOTOS)
Amsterdam, day 3 of bacheloring.



Wedding Day Photos *Tims Camera

These are the photos from the photographer shoot--youll notice the earmark in these shots.

2008-07-03 Wedding Portrait stamped


Hope you enjoy viewing these as much as we enjoyed making these memories. Thanks to all who thought of us during our special day... Read more!